First Four Weeks

Meliya will be a month old in a day. The time really has gone fast. Sometimes though, when she is crying and not going down for a nap, I struggle with "am I going to make it?" It reminds me of when I was first learning how to drive, and I was having a hard time. I would watch other drivers and think, "wow, so many people know how to drive, why is it so hard for me?" It is funny; these days, when I see an older person on tv, I think, "look, they made it from baby to old person." Yes, I know the logic doesn't make any sense. I guess I should look more at other mothers and think, "hey, they have 2+ kids, and they made it, I can make it too." Right now, all I am thinking is, "why would you want 2+ kids?"